Apocalypsiversary #2
Today marks two years since my husband's affair disclosure (aka life apocalypse)... In this second year, I've learned quite a bit about trying to bring my mind and body back to healthier functioning. It's become less about Jerry and more about me and my choices. In this year post-apocalypse, we have moved another two times, I've started a 2nd new job in a year, and I started my masters degree. We began seeing a counselor again, which has pushed us into and through some of the overlooked feelings. I still haven't spoken to HER, but I still think about wanting to every day- that hasn't subsided, even though thinking of them together has gotten much less frequent. Literally, everyone and everything I've read says don't do it, so I ask God daily for that self-discipline. I still don't trust myself much of the time, but I'm not in as much pain. I still question everything about the affair and our life together (before and after) constantly. I stil...